Chapter 1: Lotus in the Rain

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不由自主地吞了吞口水，低着头看着自己的脚丫子说道："不想吃"

It wasn''t that I didn''t want to eat. I was only ten years old then, and who wouldn''t want to eat when they are hungry every day? But I knew the buns were too expensive, and we couldn''t afford them. It wasn''t that I didn''t want to eat, but that I didn''t dare to eat or buy them.

我哪里是不想吃呀，十岁，那个时候我才十岁，一个每天连饭都吃不饱年仅十岁的孩子，谁不想吃呢？可是我清楚包子太贵了，要花钱，而我们家根本就消费不起，不是不想吃，而是不敢吃，也不敢买。

Upon hearing my words, my mother didn''t say anything more, and we both walked out of the bun shop together. However, I''ll never forget that moment. as the old Chinese proverb "Eat well before dying" may sound rude but yet conveys great wisdom.

母亲听我这么说，就没有再说什么话了，然后我和母亲一起离开了卖包子的地方。可是这一幕我永远都忘记不了，中国有句古言叫做吃了好去赶死，吃了好去赶死，这句话看似粗鲁，可是却含着大学问。

My mother passed away a few days after that incident. Before her death, she wanted to taste a bun and then eat it before she died. But because of my "I don''t want to eat" answer, she left this world without eating anything.

因为母亲就在那几天过后就去世了，临终前她想尝下包子，然后吃了包子去死，可是因为我的一句不想吃，她就这样的去了，什么都没吃到，什么都没有就这样一个人离开了人世。