Chapter 9: Marriage Arrangem

Feeling helpless and powerless, with no one to turn to for help, I married Ah Bao and accepted a life of sorrow and desolation.

在无可奈何下，在无能为力的情况下，在叫天天不应的情况下我嫁给了阿宝，也认证了一生被人凄凉的悲苦命运。

Whenever a conflict arose, Ah Bao dared not take any action, and I was always the one to fight on the front lines.

每一次起冲突，阿宝都不敢有所动作，都是我在前冲锋陷阵。

When people hit Ah Bao, I would help, but when people hit me, Ah Bao wouldn''t dare to do anything. He was afraid that he would get hurt.

有人打阿宝，我去帮忙，可是有人打我，阿宝不敢付出任何行动，他怕打到了他。

In my life, I''ve experienced too many scars and shed too much blood and tears.

我这一生有过太多次的伤痕累累，也有过太多的血和泪。

I was fully aware that they would bully us much more the following time, which would be even more unfair if we didn''t fight back or show fear in the face of their unjustified behavior.

我很清楚如果被别人无故欺负时，如果不反抗，怕事，那下次他们会更欺负我们，会更毫无理由地欺负我们。

So, from a young age, I knew that if I was bullied, even if I knew I couldn''t win, I couldn''t just let people hit and scold me for no reason. I had to fight back.

所以我从小就知道，被欺负了，即使明知道打不过，也不能平白无故地遭人打骂，也一定要还手。

Resistance and retaliation were meant to let those around me know I wasn''t a pushover and wouldn''t simply take a beating. Even if I were just a rabbit, I would fight back if I''ve been bullied for no reason.

反抗和还手只想要让周围人知道，我不是软柿子，我不会就白白地挨打受罪，即使我是只兔子，被逼急了，也是咬人的。

Since I was the only one in my family who fought back when we were bullied, I was the one always left bruised and bloody, and it was always just me.

因为我们家别人欺负我们时，只有我一人反抗，所以被别人打得血淋淋的只有我一个，永远也只有我一个人。

Whenever I was beaten to the point of bleeding, I had to let it go because nobody would stand up for me or help me seek justice. When others in my family were hit, I would confront the aggressors, but no one dared to step forward or utter a sound when I was in trouble. I could only place all my hopes on my children.

被人打得头破血流，都是就这么算了，因为我被打了，没有人帮我主事，没