Chapter 51: Girlfriend

Her academic excellence stemmed from a solid foundation rather than extraordinary intelligence, surpassing most of her peers.

她之所以是学霸是因为她基础很好，好过在校的大多数人，而并非天资聪颖。

Considering he didn''t truly know her, his love for her could be an illusion, a mere dream. She found herself hesitating.

他对她并不了解，所以他对自己的爱很可能是假象，只是一个梦而已。她犹豫了。

"Yuan Suqing, are you sure you really like the Gu Xiang standing before you and not the one you''ve imagined? After all, even though we were classmates, we didn''t really know each other well. I''m not someone who believes in love at first sight."

“袁素清，你确定你真的喜欢你面前的这个顾湘？而非是你想象中的那个顾湘？毕竟我们虽然是同班同学，可是我们俩并不熟悉彼此，我也不是那种相信一见钟情的人。”

"I''m certain, always have been."

“我确定，一直很确定。”

"But I''m uncertain and can''t accept feeling like I''m being financially supported. Having self-respect is important to me. We strive to achieve greater self-worth, not go against it. I hope you can understand how I feel."

“可是我不确定，而且我不能接受这种被包养的感觉。人活着是要有自尊的。我们之所以努力，是为了赢得更大的自尊，而非背道而驰，我希望你能够理解我的心情。”

"Can''t a boyfriend take care of his girlfriend?"

“一个男朋友照顾自己的女朋友都不行吗？”

"I''m not your girlfriend, and even if there''s a possibility in the future, I don''t want to carry the burden of emotions. Once someone feels apologetic, it''s difficult not to let it influence decision-making and lead to actions that contradict our true selves. It''s the same principle as being indebted to someone. I''m sorry, but I tend to be a bit selfish. All my efforts are aimed at gaining more choices and more freedom. Besides, we might not even be compatible as boyfriend and girlfriend."

“我不是你的女朋友，即便以后有可能，我也不愿意背上感情的包袱，一个人一旦有了歉意，在作出选择时难免会被歉意所左右，做出违背本心的事情。所谓吃人嘴软,拿人手短就是这个道理。很抱歉，我这个人一向比较自私，我所有的努力是为了得到更多的选择，和更多的自由。况且我们未必就合适做男女朋友。”

At this very moment, she found herself in the lowest phase of her life, and Yuan Suqing became a guiding light. It would be dishonest to say she had no affection for him.

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